Wednesday, November 20, 2013

It's Time

Well this has been quite the year. I still don't know where God is going with it all, but there's hope that even I can't screw it all up if I try my darndest to remain faithful. The following passage has sort of been my theme prayer for today and yesterday and the day before that.

"Therefore, I will trust Him, whatever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him, in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him. If I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. He does nothing in vain. He knows what He is about. He may take away my friends. He may throw me among strangers. He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide my future from me. Still, He knows what He is about."

- John Henry Cardinal Newman

And it is a comfort to know that I'm not in charge. I just have to say yes.

Yes to moving to Boston.
Yes to figuring out finances with my arty brain.
Yes to finding a job or jobs.
Yes to each new day.
Yes to the unknown.

Today I sat down with a couple of my gal pals who are getting their books published too (or have already!) And it was so exciting to learn all the ways to market a book and make money! Honestly as  ignorant I am about finance in general, it made me want to learn how to do it all! Manage expenses, mail books personally and put together talks. It's daunting for a I-Just-Want-To-Draw girl like me. The last time a felt on top of things was in High School.

The problem is I live in my head too much. I could daydream and draw my way through life if I didn't have to make money to you know eat and be an adult. I just want to make things. A tree house. A pop-out book. A mural. For nothing. I just like doing those things. Contracts, taxes and profits make me squirm. Maybe once I learn how to do all that like I pro I'll really like it. And I'll kick myself in the shins for not getting excited earlier. And I'm the daughter of an extremely successful finance director. But anyhoo. Let's talk about something more exciting like...


I don't know why I've devoured these books a gillion times. But I have and tomorrow I'm wearing my nerdy mockingjay pin proudly and staying up way too late... again. Staying up with my sister while she writes her papers has been cozy and cathartic but very irresponsible. She slips in episodes of "Growing Pains" and it's like I can't stop to sleep. Or she'll show me performances from 'The Voice' or 'X Factor' and there goes half the night.

So again I hope I can handle all the things I feel very bad at doing. If I do them well, it's only because of Grace. I'm naturally only wired to draw, read fairytales, talk about very silly things and listen to very serious things. All the practical stuff... uff. It's like martian.


Monday, November 11, 2013

Thank You

Hello Everyone! And I mean everyone who prayed, supported and thought of me these last few months. Whether you were front and center, or whether you were behind a close door asking the Lord to help me through the book and all my other travails, I cannot tell you enough that the answers to your prayers were what sustained me. I won't give you all the details, but I can tell you that it IS a miracle that I finished on time. Originally, in an ideal world, I would have loved to have nine months to spend lavishing my love on my artwork, and well I guess six months would have been okay too. And that would have been at my physical and emotional best. When I was given two months, at probably the least opportune time, I thought, "Well, Lord this one is on You." And it was completely. In utter need, I leaned on Him and on all of you and soon I can share this book as a THANK YOU! It really feels like a project made by a community of friends!

Friday, November 8, 2013


33 illustrations ALL DONE. With two hours to spare. I made my deadline.

Praise God Almighty in Heaven. It is a miracle that I finished on time and that I'm not terribly embarrassed of any of my drawings. When I tell you it's a miracle I'm not kidding. I've never had to do illustrations that would take me a week to do in two days, and ones that would take me three days in one. And none of them are awful. Emotion hurricane.

To celebrate here is another sketch that did not make it to the final. Whoop!

Friday, November 1, 2013

Happy All Saint's Day

For all the prayers from Heaven. We thank you.

I only have five illustrations left! Again, if it weren't for the prayers and support of so many people, near and far and in heaven I wouldn't have gotten this far.

Also, here's a shout out to Cassie Pease, whose lovely designs always inspire me! Visit here site here.