Friday, January 20, 2017

Film Review: 'Silence'

(about 40 minutes after finishing the film, still pretty weepy, spoilers aplenty)

 ~ Review: On The General Theme 

Silence is a film every Christian should see and every Catholic especially. You will discover your pride and find yourself a soft, pathetic, coddled follower of Christ in need of an ocean of grace. I can barely wake up Sunday mornings to go pray at a nursing home. That is if I wake up.

Would I die for my faith? Would I withstand torture? Would I apostatize? Over and over again I asked myself these questions as I watched the pure devotion of Japanese Christians being hung, drowned, set on fire. I was humiliated and full of shame.

This story takes things to a greater extreme. To the breaking point of a fervent, young priest who is asked to forsake his faith or a group of people will die. Painfully. Slowly. And then perhaps more will be murdered until he stomps on the image of the person he adores most. The person that moves him, gives him purpose and whom he loves with his entire being. It seems to me that the moment he steps on the image of Christ is to him more painful than a brutal death. A moment of martyrdom. For that was what it truly was. He could not watch the sacrifice of others (who themselves had “apostatized”) for his faith. His life was his to give up. But the lives of others? And the screams. Will they never stop?

If you look in the Catechism of the Catholic Church you will read that a person is fully culpable for a sin if it is done in full knowledge and in complete consent. For it to be a mortal sin it must also, in conjunction with the other two requisites be grave. Nothing to me about the entire situation of the Japanese Christians or Padre Rodrigues is free of either physical or psychological torture. I can’t imagine being put in any situation as twisted, disgusting and demonic as what Padre Rodrigues was put through. The coercion is so great the sin if any is small. At least it was the conclusion I came to.

What set this film apart from other works depicting the martyrdom of Christians was actually the epilogue. Subtly we are brought into the true martyrdom and purgatory of the Padre. He received, ever so cruelly, a long life forced to deny his identity every moment, every second, each step a small death or… heads would roll. To me his was a heroic life.

And judgment? That is left up to Jesus.

And I? I wish I had a granule of his faith.

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Dream Big Princess: Aurora

 I wanted to share a project I'm actually allowed to show! Freedom!!

You may not know that I work for Disney Consumer Products/Disney Central Creative/Disney Design Group/ Disney Store. The powers that be are still trying to come up with a name for all of these departments that have recently merged under one umbrella. Well, it means I get to rub shoulders with California people a lot more and they asked me to do a special Disney Princess Project!!

At the U.S. Open Tennis Championship last weekend there was an exhibition called DREAM BIG PRINCESS: BE A CHAMPION. Eleven artist were asked to paint over racket covers each with a princess in an "empowered" pose (oh that word). I could barely get the linework/concept done at work because of everything else on my slate so by the time it was time to prime and paint that darned racket it was Friday and the painting was due on Monday. This was the exciting and exhausting process.

I did all my line work and rough color in photoshop. Surprisingly Aurora is very rarely shown facing front. Yay lack of reference. I also drew the three fairies up top but because of time constraints they were nicked and replace by stars in their respective colors.

The racket cover was delivered with black primer brushed on one side. I repainted it white/yellowish and then did some old school rub pencil on the back and press hard with a pen on top of my linework printout so it would show up on the canvas. Then it was paint, paint, paint!!

I hope you enjoyed it it was a real honor to be showcase with so many talented people!

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Progress on 'Fault In Our Stars'

Happy Advent! It's almost Christmas!

I'm crunching so I won't have too much work over the holidays, but I know there's still going to be a pile. It always happens when I have vacation coming up. I do have some progress on my fan piece for The Fault In Our Stars by John Green...

Back to crunching! ;)

Monday, November 30, 2015

Los Doctores H²

My good friend Tommy Heyne, an absolutely amazing doctor, commissioned this illustration as a present for his girlfriend, also a doctor! Basically, they're adorable and I was very happy to do it!